could this be love?

you're all i think about.
...dream about
...care about...
and i miss you more and more each day
and i'd always want to be next to you
like when we were just friends.

can it still go back?
even if we both know the truth?

sigh.
if only you know the truth....

Quick Update

Heyhey!

I've talked to my Adviser and I'm taking Philoma. Since I don't know how to draw yet... I better start practicing now so when we become Sophie, I'll be able to be good at FreHand. :)

So yeah... I told you he and I are fine now. We talk through text and ym but never at school. Blah! What the heck right? I was talking to Inna yesterday and I was telling her about the things he and I were talking about. He was saying kasi he won't sleep not until he have seen my work (my logos & ticket for Green Harvest)... then I told him that "sabi mo yan ah! pag tinulugan mo ako I won't talk to you tomorrow" then Inna said, "hahaha!! ay naku empty threat naman yan!! ni hindi mu nga siya magawang tignan ehh!!" LOL. yeah she was right. Grrr. Well I'm sorry I could not look straight at his face because HE KNOWS! and now that I KNOW ABOUT HIS..... it's very awkward! haha :)) but I really miss him naaa. huhu. I hope today... later at class.. we'll talk naa. I can't take another day not talking to him. It's just so saaaad. :))

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Last saturday, SM North Edsa because CFC-YFL had a Praise Concert called "Hooked" and yeah it was awesome!

I met new people !:) Oh! We all got a baller band and it says, "hooked" and then "Rom 8:39". Nice yeah?

It started with a mass first and then the concert started. They sang I think all the Hillsong United songs which rocks sooo yeahh...

Haii.. sorry I gotta go. Need to get ready for school. :D

Sigh

Boo...

I am missing him... real bad. :((

School isn't the same when he's not around... or his presence.

Fudgee! I really miss our friendship. The times when we just talk about anything... and just being with him.

But I can't do talk to when I am feeling like this... it'll just make everything harder.

BLAH. :((

but I heard that he misses me also... :)

rollercaster ride

Right now I really wanna scratch this

"Boy,
you got me crazier."

entry under this because after that day I felt nothing but sadness.

Monday was okay... but I ended up hating my day because of these two people I see all mushy-mushy when they don't need to because they aren't suppose to be one and they aren't even a COUPLE!

Yes, I like the guy, period. But hell, it hurts to see the guy you like getting all mushed up with a girl he's not even going out with. Okay! that's like.... neverminddd!

And then today (nov4), I didn't talk to my guy friends... I was with my girl friends the whole day. But for today and maybe the rest of the week, I want to be with them (girls) naman cuz I know they will help me and stay with me for whatever reason that I'm going through right now. I actually missed them today. Today also was the time when I again felt like they've been there even if I didn't really talk to them for the past months properly. Awww. See what girl friends for?

School finished and I didn't talk to my guy friends parin... Esp, him. Of course I don't want him to know which him I'm not talking to. Haha. Plus, I don't feel like talking to them because I don't feel that open when I share guy problems 'cept for Annie. :) hehe

Anyways. Imma leave now. I'm having cold and I need to sleep now. :(
Nytie!

ym stat: so tired of showing you what i feel but you don't see it boy, you don't. :|

inlove? no just friends

Boy,
you got me crazier.

Right here, Right now.

Aiinakoo. Tinatamad talaga ako mag update.
I was going to blog like days ago but it seems like I never get a chance to really blog about what I want to say. You see, as I mentioned before I am having a short-term memory which means every time there's something I need to remember later, I don't get to remember when I recall it. Gahh! It's really annoying and I really wanna gain my memory back! What should I dooo?? :((

Anyways, I've watched two movies this week. I watched HSM3 and My Only ü. :)
Both I like.
HSM3 was okay though. I prefer HSM1-2 for the story but the songs & dances HSM3. :)
My Only ü was nice and funny. :) hehe
Sigh. Why is loovee everywhere but not here?
Awwshh. :( hehe

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I have a question.
Have you ever liked your close friend? What did you do when you know that he loves your close friend (even if it's fading na) and he's liking your other close friend? Move on or Tell him?

Ackk! Must help meee. :((

friend(s) comes first before love/crush :)

What a long day. *phew*

For Dynarel class today, we went in front of CSB Main and had prayer rally for Mindanao and then we left na. Marie, Inna, Mon and I went to Yellow Cab to buy pizza because it is Marie's birthday today so she thought of treating us pizza. When we were at YC, Mon and I left early to buy "chips"... well we did buy some but we went to Red Ribbon to buy a cake for her. :) I knew that there was something missing and so I thought of buying her a cake. :)

Called up Inna to go first to school, plaza v to be exact and don't let Marie know because we will be surprising her with the cake. :) So yeah... went back to school... saw RObbie!:) Awwh, gee if only I knew robbie was there... I could have dropped by in the office... when he called me I froze and looked at him in a blurry way and said "Ohhh! Robbie!" Haha Aww, I feel really sad cuz whenever he goes to CSB (and prolly the office) I'm not there. Huhuhu. :((

Anyways, back to Marie's birthday... she was surprised when she saw me with the cake. Awwsh. :) She said she was thankful and all and she really couldn't believe that for the firs time in the universe, someone did something like that for her. Awwww. :) I'm happy Marie. I miss youu and I miss our bonding so much. I'm happy that you had fun today at our "dinner" haha :)

lovelovelove you and i super miss you to death.
it's so sad we weren't like how we used to be nung 1st term... but i am wishing to spend more time with you... like 1st term. :)

Thank me because I chose to be happy for you even though alam mo na... medyo haha namomoblema akoo. :) mwuah mwuah. :)

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Crush - David Archuleta

Cause the possibility
that you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

it's nice to be happy!

It was a happy day. :)

*read your secret book, mimi*

kilig.

:))

i broke my promise

Okay....
I just remembered my dream last night...
Which somehow makes me feel worst because I seriously feel the feeling is just too strong. :((
I don't know what to do anymoree...

The dream was...
I was at this thing... with some friends.. and he was there as well with his friends..
then I got this ball thing from him (i guess?) you know those beach kind of ball.. but not that big.. then he suddenly laid his head on the ball.. which is like.. you know kinda weird because I was like hugging the ball.. Gah! Then he just stayed there til his friend or whoever called him and said to go.. yeah he did said that he has to go and all and that time it was like "okay fine bye" for mee because for mee he doesn't know...

Then... on YM he PM-ed me and said "now do you feel it?"


BLAHHHHHHHHHHHH!

What does that mean?

Huhuhuhu.

Well i kinda know.. but.... =((

I don't really think about him that MUCH but whyy do I get dreams of him?? And like that paa. Like he left a message. Amp naman oo!

=))))

Acckkk! Need some help. :(

Okayy......

I tried....

but it's not working guys! :((

My friends have slapped me over and over again but it won't work. 

I still like him...

and will always will? Hahaha Jokeee.

Scratch always.... 

Haii.

it's time to really let go.

I have come to say that I will no longer like him like I always does.

I clearly remember blogging about him for a month or so.. yeah the posts that were very emo-ish? those! You might not know the whole story but then after this month I have promised myself and a friend of mine that I must stop this foolish things that I've been doing for a couple of months from now because I'm just making myself stupid for a guy. 

I am giving up because I know from the very start that there's never gonna be us.

I know because I didn't want us to be an item either and I guess the part that you might like me as well is the part that kept me from holding on. I've seen a lot of signs and I thought maybe I should wait and see but little by little... nothing changed. 

You and me... 

Nothing Special but just Friends. 

Emo post eh? Well yeah I guess it's better to say it out before it's too late. 

Hiding things about what I feel just make it harder for myself. :)

I have a question.

How come every ENZO i know are cute?

Enzo, from trumpets. Okay, he's a lot lot younger than me but then he is a cutie!:P
Enzo, my blockmate. Why? Nyahaha!

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"Why Oh Why Do I Feel This Way?"

natamaan naa!

"On another note.. how do you deal with finding out that the guy you are crushing on is MARRIED?! Has a cute cute little baby, and is more than 10 years older than you?!?! HAHAHA! It's quite a laugh! I just wanna laugh it all off! But but.. crush ko talaga sya!! Ha ha ha! And oh, he's a dancer. I am attracted to good dancers! I can't help it! Dancing and dancers... what can I say? I just can't deny how much I love them both! Hehe.."- Joan Kristine

OMGGG i can totally relate as in right now! I'm just not sure how many babies my crush have though! LOL I was telling some of my close friends about that person i find cute on and they're all telling me na pati daw ba daw ung mga ganun pinapatulan ko! Hahaha!! Hellooo i just find them cute! What's wrong with that? Crush lang naman eh... haha

Haii nakuuu!

"And oh, he's a dancer. I am attracted to good dancers!"

Wahhh ako din sobraa! May pogi points ang mga guys na gwapo, mabait, di mayabang at lalong lalo na na magaling sumayaw! as in hiphop, streetdance. gahhh! *melting*

Hahaha! nababaliw na akooo alis na nga akooo! haha

SMILE

A CAMILLE & MARIENNE MOMENT:

[this happened randomly during english lesson yesterday]

Camille: oh crap. *stares at the plug under the blackboard*
Marienne: What?
C: 22....
M: *thinks.. realizes that is when we have to do our english oral presentation* crap. *stares at Ivy* CRAP.
C: What?
M: Dr Pong [our principal] is watching us dance tomorrow.
C: *looks at M and pauses; looks at plug again* oh crap. *pauses* Do i have a fever?
M: *puts hand on C's cheek* I dunno * puts hand on own cheek*
C: I don't know if I'm sick.
M: You are sick.
C: *gives M a weird look* yeah i know i'm sick, but what kind of sick? do i have a fever? *pauses*
M: *puts hand on own cheek and puts another hand on C's cheek*
* at the same time, C puts hand on own neck and puts other hand on M's neck*

*M and C realizes that they look pathetic and l.o.l.s*

haha if you didn't think that was funny, then too bad. haha it was actually really funny for some reason

- that was what on reanne's site.. just copied and pastes it. :P

HEHE. I loveee Camille&Marienne moments! Hehe :) We'll update you guys for our random moments okie? ;)

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Hmm nothing much I can share... maybe just a little. XP

` i'm sick. currently have cold and my voice is diffeferent which i like - haha i do like my voice when i'm paos. haha weird me. :P
`i have so many tests coming up. yeahh so many.. i have the half accounts test tomorrow which is about cashBook&pettyCash. Dang I'm soo sick of that part. I prefer Balance statement. Haha though I don't get to balance it all the time! HAHA lol.. hmm but I think I'm going to be ok tomorrow. The following day will be our Geog test.. and one 30th its our Math. Haish.. can't wait for it to be overr.
`eng presentation. Geez why is it we have to start from class # 13-24? arrr! i'm 15 soo it's unfair! haha reanne,tony& vivek will do theirs on thursday. hmpff. but look in a brighter side, mimi.. you're done na before them! hahaha
`dance performace again! - if they don't pick us... a SUPER YAY for us! cuz I seriously don't want to stay at school til 5-6pm i think on friday cuz we're only HALF DAY. And I don't want to come back to school on saturday again!
`got 83marks for my fashion design in VisualARTS - man! 83?! Huhu. But hey atleast the teacher said I improved! Weeee. :) Gonna try and get another 10points higher than 83 next time. :P
`got 72 (D/C) for the drawing test last saturday. - yeahhh not bad. LOL
`currently love the song.. "MY HEART" by PARAMORE again. - yeahh... i just love that song. :P
`i like seeing K around school... makes me SMILE. - yiheee! XP
`i like it when I get to talk to K.- *kiligs*
`i seriously need to stop talking about K now. HAHA. :P
`DOM's cute. - i wanna see him soon. LOL
`did sit&reach for P.E. - hmpff don't care how much i got there.
`did push up for P.E. - did 19 times.. and now.. my shoulders hurt.

oh yeah... may kwento akoo... luna and i talk about K from time to time...
LUNA & CAMILLE;

L: did he stay and watched you guys?
C: huh? oh nooo. :( he didn't.
L: oohh
C: yeah.. *sad* I told marienne to go up to him and ask him if he's staying to watch us.. but he said no.
L: NOO! you shouldn't have told marienne ah! I want you to talk to him only!!
C: whyy? what's wrong if marienne talks to him?
L: nooo! he might be interested in herr instead!
C: HAHAHAHA! LOL. omgshhh.. okay okay fineee i'll talk to him myself from now on. haha
L: good good.

man LUna talaga. Hehe. she's soo cute. lol

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i just want to ask... do you guys have that feeling like some memories just sometimes HIT right through you when everything seems to be soo good around you? I meant memories like with someone or something.. err something like that.. what do you guys do to forget it? i am having a hard time to let things pass kaagad. they're just sooo hard to forget especially when you go to places you guys went before.. or the things you guys did before... sigh. blah. what do you guys dooo?

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i need a new layouttt. i'm running out of ideas. HAHA.

haish... i gotta go noww.. need to rewrite my eng presentation for tomorrow.. and review my accounts test again. take care y'all.

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hehe with vivek, anotnio, marienne and mr bellemin.
*i'm the one who said "again again.. ulit ulit..." HAHA
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HILLSONG UNITED!

HILLSONG UNITED

was the BOMB!!!

THE CONCERT WAS AMAZING

I FELT GOD'S PRESENCE.. AND IT WAS GREAT!

GAHH!! NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE THE FEELING BEING IN THE CHURCH, WITH THEM AND OF COURSE, WITH Jesus.

HE'S ONE AMAZING GUY.

LOVE YOU, GOD.

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Afther the concert, went with the RIVERS to Quarry Bay to eat dinner. Hehe it was fun being with them! Weee. I can see why reanne is sooo RANDOM. haha. LOL hehe Was with ross, dom, chris and reanne in the taxi to get to the restaurant. Man, ross was soo loud! he was totally random! hehe but it was fun.. we were noisy. :P

Ross, reanne, dom and i were in the same table.. haha saya saya! Met new people.. actually Reanne's friends mostly know me na! they said they heard alot about me.. and they saw me in reanne's site. hehe

Left at around 920pm na, said my goodbyes. Was shocked that Phillip knows my name and so is DOM!

Me: bye guys!!!
DOM: *waves* bye marienne! bye camille!
mimi waved and gave a big smile to him

we didn't really talk that much pero it was fun being in the same table as them.

I have to admit, DOMinic was pretty cute. Actually the 3 brothers, philip, dom and chris they're all cute. hehe :P

I want to see them again soon, i hope i can come to the river soon. :)

**HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, KUYA ELOYS!!!! MWUAH!

you are my everything, GOD.. everything